Thursday, December 23, 2010

Fuck kindness

That’s it, I don’t want to be kind anymore. People take advantage of me, in the worse way possible. Someone that I fancied told me pretty words and made me feel special, it was short but enough for me to be hurt by finding out I was only a tool in a well planned plan.

I didn’t mean date you in that way.

You’re not exactly my girlfriend.

Then finding out, I’m not the only girl in his tryout session. I don’t know which hurts more… to be used for such a trivial matter or to be cheated on although everything was based on an illusion. In any cases, I was fooled again and it makes me sick that I fell for the exact same trap. I fell for nice promises and nice attentions that I easily mistake for love. The apology was even worse.

Please don’t care about me.

You are too kind.

Fuck yeah, I’m too kind. So fucking kind I let people walk all over me and use me. So kind, I can’t even hate the people that have done me so wrong in the past. So kind, I can’t refuse to help someone even though it’s more troublesome to help then so sit on my ass.

But not kind enough to not publish this. Someone send me a guide on how to be a bitch please~

PS: Sorry, back to regular posts later today… I just had to vent somewhere. I haven’t done one of these in a while… right? :(

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