Thursday, November 29, 2012

Terminanurse (728)

If you follow me on twitter, you've probably read some tweets about how I'm sick and all. Meh. I've spent the last couples days in several clinics and the last two in a hospital, mostly waiting to see doctors and specialists and all.

Today I met Terminanurse ( que j'ai surnommé la matricule 728 des infirmières mais ça marche pas tant en Anglais ). I've been in and out of clinics and hospitals for the whole weeks, trying to figure out what's wrong with me ( i.e. rashe, extremely high fevers, swollen and painful lymph nodes, blah blah blah ) and we've finally narrowed it down: it's either an allergic reaction to my new meds for epilepsy or some evil unindentified nasty. And blood tests will tell. Cool.

So that's where Terminanurse comes in. Lady looks nice, we chat a little bit; I like to get to know people a bit before I give them some blood, you know.... I'm a lady. She finally pricks me with her needle. I never look at my arm during a blood test because I hate blood and I hate needles. So I was looking at my mom instead, everything was going well... Until she starts WIGGLING THAT NEEDLE OF DEATH INSIDE OF MY ARM!!!!

" Ow that hurts "

No response. She keeps on wiggling the freaking needle more. I'm not one to complain about pain, but this shit hurts like fuck.

" Ok, this hurts really really bad "

No response from the nurse. My mom looks horrified and the pain crosses that threshold and I start crying, really really hard. And I'm trying not to move because Terminanurse over here is still wiggling that huge ass needle in my arm and last thing I need right now is to make it worse.


The keeps wiggling this evil medical tool in my arm. I can feel the needle scratching whatever else is in my arm and close to said vein. She's not hearing my begging so I sit there, crying so hard, looking at my scared mother.

" Ok ~~ I'm done ~~ !"

She finally removes the diabolic needle from my arm and goes on with her business, nearly whistling a joly tune while I'm still crying in pain. I didn't let her put a bandaid on me... WHAT COULD SHE DO WITH A BANDAID IF SHE COULD HURT ME WITH A NEEDLE... I ain't taking risks, I'll bleed in my shirt, I don't care.

We get out of there and my mom says: " Ice cream ? "

" A full tub please. "

And then,

I dyed my hair lilac.

You can still see the rashes on my arms and face :(


Thursday, November 22, 2012

Katy Perry lashes review

I was at Shopper's today and I noticed these lashes in a gift section and was quite intrigued by them. I had read a couple of interesting reviews on these lashes and thought I would try them myself! There are four different designs and they all are packaged beautifully. The boxes remind me of Japanese cosmetics, such as Dolly Wink.

I decided to give the Oh, Honey! since they seemed to be quite natural. Oh My! is quite dramatic and I couldn't think of any occasions where wearing such lashes would actually look nice on me. Sweeties also has a more natural look and I liked how the ends of the lashes are thicker; it reminds me a lot of popular Diamond lashes. Finally, Cool Kitty seems to be the type of lashes I would wear at night, although they kind of remind me of lashes you can get in those 10 for 2$ boxes.
What I like: the lashes are very dense, they don't look bulky. The length it also ideal and the curl is perfect: some lashes are too curly and end up poking the top of my eyelid. If you would like a more intense curl, they can easily be curled, although they will most likely not fit in a regular eyelashes curler unless you trim them. If you wish to do the elongated lash line style of make up ( like in gyaru ), I recommend using the KOJI no 100 lashes curler to curl them! The lashband is very think, invisible and flexible, making the lashes very light. They are so light, you don't feel like you're wearing lashes!

What I didn't like: the glue that comes with the lashes is not worth trying to use. I recommend sticking to your favorite glue and not wasting your time with the sample provided. Another thing I didn't like is that the lashes looks little bit shiny. I also wished that that another pair was included since they seem quite fragile and I'm pretty sure they will wear out in no time...

Overall, I think they are very good lashes and I think that they can easily be used for Japanese style make-up! They are also way above other lashes sold in drugstores in terms of quality. The price is quite reasonable and they can easily be found at Shopper's for 7,99$!



Thursday, November 15, 2012

Epilepsy and me

November is an awareness month for pretty much every causes and cancers, but the one that hits home for me is Epilepsy. November is the month of Epilepsy Awareness and although I've talked my condition before, I would like to share my story with you. It has always been a personal goal to talk about epilepsy because there are a lot of misconceptions regarding this neurological condition and I like to inform people so they are confortable with epilepsy.

Last time I blogged about obtaining my learner's and a lot of you were interested on how epilepsy has affected my life. My story is not as dramatic as some other epileptics but epilepsy has played a major role in a lot of decisions I took. It also has had negative but also some positive effects on my life. Gather around children, as I tell you my story!

I started experiencing jerks in my arms around the age of 13. I remember clearly experiencing a jerk in my arm during summer camp, I thought it was due to fatigue so I didn't think much of it. However, they started occurring weekly,and then daily. My parents thought it was just a phase but it eventually got bad... The jerks would occur in the morning, when I was tired and stressed. I would have them in my arms all the time and I had stopped eating breakfast because it was always upsetting to me: I would break glasses and plates daily.

Eventually, my mom brought me to a doctor because I started getting these jerks in my legs: I would walk and randomly fall on the ground. We were referred to a neurologist who did some tests but we never heard from him ever again. A year later, we got a call from Dr Jeffrey Jirsch from the Montreal General Hospital. The EEG I had done a year before showed signs of epilepsy so we did more EEGs, MRIs and other tests. Finally, by the age of 17, I was diagnosed with Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy.

Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy is a type of epilepsy that develops when you're a teen and that most people will have for the rest of their lives. Luckily, it can easily be controlled with medication, but its a matter of being responsible and adopting a healthy lifestyle. I first was really depressed about my diagnosis and was extremely sensitive about people knowing until I realized how sweet and understanding my classmates were. I was prescribed Frisium but was quickly switched over to Keppra as it wasn't working well for me. I started on a very high dosage of Keppra and would sleep all the time. I didn't like taking it so I often skipped it. One time in March 2009, I skipped my meds and went to work early. I later attended a party and drank a lot. I crashed at my boyfriend's (at the time). The next morning I wasn't feeling too well but left for work anyway.

I was walking to the metro... that's it. I don't remember what happened. About 30 minutes later, I regained consciousness; I was on the ground, blood all over my face. My head hurt like hell and I was confused. I realized that a paramedic was trying to talk to me but I had a hard time talking... He then informed me that I just had a seizure and everything would be ok. I then asked for my cellphone, called my boss and told him I couldn't come to work. I then called my dad, who was 2 hours away, and told him what happened.

Everything else is still a blur to me today. I remember doing some tests and staying some time in ICU. I felt very lonely and a cute nurse came to clean the blood of my face. I started crying because I was worried of having scars and he was so sweet and said that I was too pretty and even with scars, I would look beautiful. My older brother then arrived: my dad had called him and told me to get here ASAP. My dad arrived a bit later and I was later discharged. I slept for 2 days straight and missed a week of school.

After that, I never skipped my meds ever again: I learned the hard way that alcohol, stress, lights and fatigue were my triggers and that I needed to adopt a healthy lifestyle or it would happen again. I did have a seizure in my sleep after that but it wasn't s bad as the previous seizure. Since then, I've been careful about getting enought sleep and not drinking too much. I can hold my liquor very well but I never get too drunk... Costs too much money in drinks to get to that point anyway (haha). I also only drink with people who are aware of my condition and know what to do if something were to happen.

For the last 6 months, I've been very depressed and anxious and we've realized last Monday that these were very likely side effects from Keppra and I'm now starting on a different medication called Lamictal. I'm already starting to feel a difference: I feel that I have more energy and I don't feel tired all the time!

So what are positive things I've learned from being epileptic? Honestly, I don't think I would be such a strong person if I wasn't epileptic. Yeah shit happens in life, but I can stay here and cry myself to sleep because I have an incurable neurological condition. I don't need pity nor do I think I'm a pitiful person. I also don't think I would be as healthy as I am: I take care of my body since pretty much everything can be linked to my epilepsy.

Epilepsy is something that's part of me and its probably going to be the case for the rest of my life, but it's not something that defines me or controls my life. I'm lucky: I have control over it. I can now drive. Yeah, it set me back in my studies but I realize that it's kind of a good thing; I'm a lot more serious about school and goal oriented compared to my younger classmates!

I think this goes to show that anyone can turn a bad situation into something positive for you and other people around you!

Epilepsy is not something a lot of people talk about: a lot of us are shy to talk about it because there are a lot of social stigmas surrounding it so I would like you to feel free to ask ANY questions. Honestly, there are no stupid questions about epilepsy, only opportunities to learn and now is a pretty good one! So please ask me anything in the comments or if you are shy, by email!


Sunday, November 4, 2012

Winter is coming

And as much as I would like to pretend that it's not the case... the flu that I caught a few days ago is a clear reminder that the cold season is just around the corner. And also a reminder that no matter how cooler my outfit looks with my coat open, it's getting too cold for that.

Hoping you are keeping warm, so here are boots that not only seem to be really warm but also look great!

Boots and pictures from JustFab, Steve Madden, Solestruck and Betsey Johnson!